Requiem for Reality

Phew! It's been a crazy time since the last time I posted. Still with no direction or theme for this place. There is much more philosophical conversations I would like to have, but today I'm feeling soemthing different.



Things are finally looking up. I mean right? I graduate with my BA in Psychology in December. Hopefully if things go right, I'll end my last semester on the Dean's List again, and get into grad school no problem.



It doesn't look like we'll be having kids anytime soon. Despite the interest by outside parties. That's unfortunate too, because I think I'm finally at a point in my life where I am ready to have a child. Well only time will tell what will come of this. I imagine that the doctors for both of us will have someway of remedying the situation.



The only thing that really sucks right now...is me! I wish I could just be who I needed to be. Or be the person everyone thinks I am and expects me to be. I'm too busy to be of any good to anyone. Yet everyone sees me as doing great things. Yes, it's true I work hard, but I spend so much time at work and school that I miss out on a lot of things, and if people only really knew how that made me feel.

And then, life goes on.

The only thing I'm worrying about, now that I've dusted myself off, is whether or not to get an MSU graduation ring or an Air Force ring. Decisions, decisions.....